I think it is time to update my get-out-this-funk status. I have been working hard at my checking off everything on my list, and feeling much better :) No more letting these winter blues bring me down!
- Clean the house, top to bottom. A cluttered and messy living space makes for a restless and overwhelmed mind. And a clean and tidy living space makes for a more calm mind, or so I have found for me. DONE!
- Catch up on laundry. IN PROGRESS! (I never have enough quarters….)
- Schedule a day that works for both the Artist and I to prepare our taxes. MAILING OUR FINAL PAPERS ON MONDAY!
- Apply for an external scholarship. IN PROGRESS!
- Go to the Soulard Farmer’s Market. To stock up on fresh and healthy foods, support local farmers, and get some fresh air and out and about in the community. I like to eat local and organically as often as I can. NOT YET, BUT MAYBE TOMORROW!
- Do some yoga. I enjoy kripalu yoga. I find it is relaxing, stress relieving, and is really beneficial for my body’s needs. NOT YET
- Work with the Artist on fixing up the chairs from Goodwill. DONE! (refer to previous post)
- Stock up on lots of healthy foods to fill my body with nutrients, and to entice me to cook lots of home cooked meals, and healthified baked goods. DONE! (Still some items I would like to get, but still bargain hunting for a good price!)
- Switch up my exercise routine to include heavier lifting and more cardio. LIFTING HEAVIER :D FOR MY VERY FIRST TIME EVER IN MY LIFE, I GRABBED WEIGHTS ON THE BOTTOM FREE WEIGHT RACK! STILL TRYING TO WORK IN MORE CARDIO.
- Clean out and organize the fridge, freezer, and pantry. DONE!
- Find good homes for clothing and other items that I no longer need, and that are contributing to the clutter. NOT YET
- Do a little thrifting. I could some some non-winter shoes that are more fancy then every day wear. DONE! (refer to previous post, although you can never do enough thrifting lol!)
- Pick up my knitting. WORKING ON SOME LEG WARMERS!
- Finish my current novel. IN PROGRESS!
- Watch some good movies. YES :) Among others, I recently saw Gravity. It was amazing, but really scary. Space really freaks me out. It is like my worst nightmare, being lost in space. Or bring lost at sea on a rubber dingy, with no land in sight. The vastness of the ocean also freaks me right out. I could never go into space, or go scuba diving. I don’t even like doing for deep sea swims in a lake or something where the bottom is waaaaay down there. I’m not sure what it is, but it is so scary to me. Way more scary then horror movies with fictional monsters or villains.
On a happier note, I listened to an interesting story on NPR recently. The Artist and I were in the car, arriving at home, but ran into the house as fast as we could to turn on the radio to continue listening. It was about a man who was several months behind in his rent and had to go before a judge, and was facing eviction. He was given 15 days to come up with the money his owed, and had no idea how he was going to do it. He entered a rap contest and the grand prize was exactly the amount he owed. He was struggling to make a living, trying to follow his dreams. In the end, he and another contestant were tied for the win, and he was able to pay off his rent debt. Shortly thereafter, having been seen at the contest, his career took off and he was going off on tour. He said that if this is what it took for him to make it, then it was all worth it.
The moral of story is, don’t give up on your dreams. Don’t settle for anything less then what you want. I think the reason why the Artist and I enjoyed this radio talk so much was because we are living this story. We are struggling, we are broke, but we keep on going. One step at a time, we are headed in the right direction. We figure out whatever obstacles are presented to us, and we become that much closer. Some think we are crazy to “choose” this struggle, that it is really worth it? The answer is yes. Without a doubt. We know what we want, and will stop at nothing. As the saying goes, “even the longest journey, begins with a single step”.
I know what I want in a home. I know what I want in a career. I know what I want in a family. I am in an amazing marriage. I am head over heels in love. I will work hard to achieve my goals. I will never give up.
Am most importantly, I am happy. And really, isn’t that all that matters?