It has been a busy, stressful summer. I started classes the day after moving into our new Toronto apartment and we still aren’t completely unpacked and set up. We have been frequently thrift shops looking for furniture, but haven’t had any luck. Things are slowly coming together back up in the great white north!
My summer semester was definitely hard, it is such a shock going from the working world back into school full time. But I made it, and with decent grades. The biggest shock of all, however, was the fact that I am at a completely different life stage them most of my classmates. Being a 27 year old in undergrad classes, I am 8 years older then some of my peers. Although that really isn’t much when you consider one’s lifespan, it is quite a difference in what “phase” of life is happening.
I am 27, will be celebrating my 6th wedding anniversary with the Artist at the end of this month, I have lived on my own and with the Artist for many years and in turn have many bills to pay, and my favourite pass times include reading, watching films, listening to CBC radio, cooking (well, I am the assistant- the Artist is the actual cook!), relaxing while listening to our record collection, getting crafty, and powerlifting. Through conversation with other students around campus, it seems, as it should when you are 19, that going to bars and hanging out with friends are what the kids are doing these days. I wish I was saying that I was declining invitations to go out to the bar because I just wanted to go home and relax, but it must be obvious that I am an old lady. Either that, or I come across as an unapproachable person. Its probably both. Chandler from Friends articulates it perfectly…
I also feel like I am one of the last people to be fit the “starving student” archetype. I feel like I am surrounded by people who can afford all kinds of travelling and vacations, Mac laptops to bring to class for note taking, take-out food whenever they want, and no problems paying tuition or rent. Meanwhile, I am doing my laundry in my bathtub, using the campus food bank, sharing a laptop with the Artist (we need a computer equally for our own livelihoods) as well as a cell phone, and taking notes in class with a notebook that my parents bought for me and a pen I took from their house. I filled that notebook completely, so lets hope they buy me a new one for the upcoming term, LOL. I also have no idea how I will be paying my tuition that is due at then end of this month, not to mention bills, and I continuously sew together the same few clothing items that keep gaining new holes or tears.
It is all very weird, being in undergrad classes at 27. When I was 19, I thought for sure that at 27 I would have the best job that ever existed and been done school with a prestigious degree(s) and have my dream home and life all figured out. Well, I have come to the conclusion that you never really figure life out. It is an ongoing journey with changing goals and aspirations along the way- so you might as well enjoy things, one day at a time.
Today I enjoyed bacon, egg and veggie scramble, and hash browns for lunch. I enjoyed grocery shopping and still having about $10 left over for any other food needs that might arise this week. I am going to workout later with the Artist, and despite my current sciatic pain, I will enjoy that too. I will enjoy watching the Olympics tonight snuggled up with my love, and I will enjoy how beautifully gloomy and rainy it is this afternoon.
To see more photos of me enjoying the simple things in life, check me out on instagram @capitaineflash
As much as I would LOVE to travel and take a vacation, not have to worry about how I will pay tuition, or go shopping for new clothes and shoes whenever I feel like, I am sharing my life with someone who makes me smile and laugh every day, who shows me unconditional love, supports me, and inspires me….and that is more important than anything.
Suddenly, the mangled and torn insoles of my shoes seem so insignificant ❤